I have a hard time following through.

I’ve never known this about myself, but in a way it’s true. 

A couple months ago, I was very excited to start up this newsletter again. To really make it something. Then I forgot and it’s been more than a month since I last published something.

Around the same time, I made a YouTube video. In the video, I explained how I finally want to start uploading regular videos. I didn’t.

These are just two examples from this year. And there are also loads of things I’ve followed through on. 

For example, I’m still studying, currently in my sixth year of a three year bachelor. Even though I haven’t enjoyed it much and have had a lot of different setbacks throughout the years. 

But still, these failed projects and attempts keep nagging at me. Because deep down I want to keep pursuing these things. 

I want to write regularly, and I would love to just upload videos to YouTube even when nobody watches them. 

But I don’t. 

I haven’t figured out yet how to convince myself to keep going. How to actually make it work. 

But I’m going to keep trying. Starting (once again) today.

Mark